Sunday, August 21, 2016

Becoming perfect

I was having a conversation with my boyfriend Jordan this morning about making mistakes in our lives. I expressed concern that I was not as perfect as I should me. To this he gave the well known response "we don't need to be perfect." As we were discussing this I thought a lot about why I am so hard on myself. I know I am not expected to be perfect and yet I still expect it of myself. I find myself thinking "after 25 years of making mistake after mistake I should have this figured out already. I should know what to do to avoid sin. I should be a pro" But this isn't the case. As I sat in sacrament meeting I thought a lot about this and I wrote my thoughts down. Here are my Sunday thoughts I wanted to share:
Each of us makes mistakes that no one except ourselves and God knows about. We also feel as though we should hide the fact that we sin from the world. We feel as though we need to put on a show for others. Pretend to be perfect if you will. But at what cost?

Being imperfect brings us closer to the savior. He was perfect and chose to endure the struggles and trials we all face. When we embrace our imperfections we embrace that we need a savior. That we can't do this on our own. We embrace that we have work to do.

There is beauty in imperfection. If we were all perfect in this life we would not have characters and personalities.  I am who I am because of the mistakes I have made. I will become the woman I am meant to be by embracing the mistakes I will make today and tomorrow and learn from them. I will become who I am meant to be by embracing the need for a savior.

I have many faults. I have anxiety, fears, worries, trust issues and major indecisiveness. I am a piece of work. But every great masterpiece has been exactly that, A piece of work molded into something beautiful.

We are the clay in the potters hands... Will we let him help smooth and shape us? Will we allow ourselves to find beauty in our imperfections?

I know I am going to focus less on being perfect and more on learning from and finding beauty in being imperfect.